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Daphi 的雜誌舍
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沉澱一下思緒...再出發..
或許遇到你..
填補生命中的那一塊缺痕..

但, 原來我的心田是一塊畸零地啊.....
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Do U listen to me

Listen To the song here in my heart A melody I start but can't complete Listen To the sound from deep within It's only beginning to find release Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard They will not be pushed aside and turned Into your own All cause you won't listen Chorus: Listen I am alone at a crossroads I'm not at home in my own home And I've tried and tried to say what's on my mind You should have known Oh, Now I'm done believing you You don't know what I'm feeling I'm more than what you made of me I followed the voice you gave to me But now I've gotta find my own You should have listened There is someone here inside Someone I thought had died So long ago Oh I'm screaming out in my dreams to be heard They will not be pushed aside and turned Into your own All cause you won't listen Chorus: Listen I am alone at a crossroads I'm not at home in my own home And I've tried and tried to say what's on my mind You should have known Oh, Now I'm done believing you You don't know what I'm feeling I'm more than what you made of me I followed the voice you gave to me But now I've gotta find my own You should have listened I don't know where I belong But I'll be moving on If you don't If you won't Listen To the song here in my heart A melody I start but I will complete Oh, Now I'm done believing you You don't know what I'm feeling Im more than what you made of me I followed the voice you think you gave to me But now I've gotta find my own My ownnnnnnnnnnn ********************************************************* (歌詞最後一個字這麼多n,實在是太佩服Beyonce飆高音的緣故!) 走入家庭後(結婚),其實真的有感覺跟單身時期的差別,特別是生了孩子後,那種離從前自由與自主的生活權利不由自主地消失,甚至為了求全,甘願放棄一些原本屬於自己的堅持,我可能是人家會定義是霸道的人,但就連霸道的我為了生活的和諧也會放棄一些堅持;那一天你問我:"難道你沒有為了現在的生活(婚姻)放棄了一些什麼?" 當下正在坐月子的我才發覺從前說要工作存錢去國外揮霍書筆的夢想怎會淡到是上一輩子在窗邊的一顆塵埃,你又問我:"再讓你選一次的話,你會這麼早生小孩嗎?" 我的表情是呆若木雞吧,我想。 你覺得,你為了這段感情這場婚姻放棄很多,或許不算多,但人生又多長呢? 你說的,我懂,可我已經忘記原來我放棄了有這麼多,同時我發現,越是放棄得多,越是對現在的人生投入的深,尤其有了寶寶的現在,根本走不開也放不下了! 這個寶寶現正enjoy 我的人生(不是join,是enjoy沒錯),等她enjoy她自己的人生之際,我想我已經老到看不見自己的夢想了,畢竟40或50多歲的人出國讀書不再有年輕的魅力和屬於這時期的一切可能性(我還想過可能生個混血寶寶呢~).....原來這一切在披上白紗的那一瞬間已成定局。 常常,覺得自己站在生活中的十字路口,而婚姻中的另一半卻全然不知,我覺得我有好大一部分是身邊這個伴侶所不懂的我,想表現給他知悉但對方還不一定願意了解,...其實我也想過很多次:或許是越來越體驗到所謂的婚姻生活而漸漸的我失去了原來的獨立心,一天一天地不再是自己而是別人眼中的某某太太! 或許我們女人都應該學習即使有了另一半仍然要保存一些原本自己的習慣,要持續地愛自己、經營自己! 至於融入另一個家庭的課題,又是另一個世界的習題了! 難啊~ 特別是婚後的女人想要一個家,要經營一個家,不想要待在家卻不像在自己家,...那到底是誰掌家? 這不只是你的也是我的生活中的一大考驗! (唉~..) 只希望女人的另一半能多傾聽。
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